Change once again- back to my Creekhome.

This year has been very full on- a Bipolar admission to the phyche ward after someone made a commented to me  'It is a pity You did not treat your Mum well during her life' while I was caring for her in a hospital bed in their home in Richmond while she was she dying and supporting my parents through her death- me the child they did not plan and I was taunted about not being wanted by my siblings during my childhood. I was able to have such open discussions with my parents in the last two years since nursing my Mother after a stroke in Townsville Hospital in August 2012.
My Dad came to have 2014 Christmas with my family here in Rockhampton and the two great grand daughters but on Christmas night he was abused by my husband and had to sleep at my sons then come and get his clothes the next day and move to a van park. I was in front of this angry man with who was blown up like the Incridible hulk, just hitting into him to get him to snap out of the anger and my son and daughter's partner were standing in front of my Dad in case he got past me. Of course my Husband had right on his side- A grieving Widower had upset him so he was in his right to abuse him and ring up everybody giving his percieved version of the event so when I texted to event to my brother he abused me and told me my husband was right. Such is his delusions with his radiotherapy affected reasoning.

Cyclone Marcia came thorough in February- I took off to Moranbah to my younger sister's 40th Brithday as it was our family's first get together without our mum- my older sister could not make it. Cyclone Marcia blew some trees over and put branches everywhere, put a limb over my old caravan where I still had my trinkets and precious stuff stored in and I recently found early photos of my Father's families cousins wet and destroyed.

Our place got on the news in March 2015 when my Brother in law was wounded by a gunshot wound from his friend Greg son Tim who had been involved in a motor bike accident and had brain injury and was having therapy of target shooting on our property with his Dad who he shot from behind before firing 3 bullets at my brother in law and then shot himself. My husband was not home, I was at work so missed it all, but the call for help came when he was close enough to save his wounded brother and bring him back to the ambulance. Some inconvenience until the ascertain if both Greg and Tim were dead and then forensic investigation so we had to sleep at our Son and Daughter in laws that night, I worked next morning too.
http://www.abc.net.au/news/2015-04-02/mans-terrifying-escape-from-murder-suicide-near-rockhampton/6369532

I had the left minuscule tear and cartilage graft operation on 30th April 2015, Once I came of f crutches after 6 weeks I was diagnosed with a L4/5 Disc Protrusion possibly form a chiropractor dropping the bed down as I had asked not do when the treatment being used was not helping the hip pain, During the CT and MRI it was shown that I had irregular bone marrow and a breast or illiac fossa biopsy was suggested to which I replied "No Biopsy's, but you can do an Autopsy". My fear of lymphoedema from underarm gland removal is so great a my husband is so reluctant to care for me when I am on crutches after leg surgery.
I took selenium, apricot kernals and Jason Winters Tea till I was physically sick so and could not face eating them again- I still remain on Selenium and Jason Winters tea at times.
I began reducing the lithium due to urinary incontence, suicide thoughts and then a severe depression, no motivation, no ability to get the house packed up so stopped it in November.


While on crutches recovering from my knee surgery I gazed out the kitchen window of our cold house and wondered  if it was as nice back down in the dongha at the creek as I remembered- on driving down the answer was YES- so plans were made to move back to "Creekhome" and rent out the house.

 On 3rd December 2015 I had an urgent USS in case of a blood clot and found a Leaking Bakers Cyst- I did not heed the Drs advice and take rest but kept on my usual active lifestyle and by 7th December I was in agony, could not walk due to fluid in the knee joint so have been on recliner rest and crutches again since Monday- Pain killers sent me high so back on Lithium to counteract it as when I am high, I am happy and my husband does not like to see me happy as he gets angry when I am.

Plans are to set up the Granny Flat in the shed for Doug's camp until we can get the old caravan down at the Creek then it can be my sleeping room and I will live in the dongha as I have been doing for the past few months after getting home from work at midnight and not wishing to be disturbed by Doug walking around the house from 4am. 

Big change reverting to House living

After having our son and daughter in law live in our home for 18 mths the decision was made with them moving back into their own home that we would move back into our house and abandon our Creek Home. I have organized to get a new door in the eastern end of the house.
Shortly after moving into the house again my mother found out she had cancer so a lot of time has been spent traveling the 8 to 12 hrs distance to have time with her.
Then I did a three fold injury on my knee- 8 to 12 weeks of taking it easy, less walking so that has hampered getting things in the house how I need them. Lots of stuff is still in the big caravan down at the creek.
then my husband's parents went into a nursing home and their home needs to be sold so a trip there sorting things out out. 2 Car loads of stuff from Doug's parents and one carload from My Mum when she died on 20th November 2014 have left a very cluttered house.
I cared for Mum for a week having a hospital bed in her home for 3 days. My Dad and I watched her get weaker and weaker until hospital admission was necessary and waited till she left us another 3 days.